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I had a security guard invite me over into a botanical guardian after hours (so fun atmosphere). “Discovered” me in the men’s bathroom and punished me accordingly.

Not at my work, but I’ve had security guards get me into fun places.

Sex without some aspect of me submitting doesn’t make sense to me. I hate looking people in the eyes normally, the idea of having sex with someone face to face as equals is just ick. I am submissive. I enjoy when I am being fucked in a way which mostly conveys to me that my pleasure doesn’t matter and that my body is a tool; my task is to make sure the person fucking me has an enjoyable orgasm.

But I’m also still a human being, and there has to be a recognition of that - I do this because it feels really really good to be choked by a guy who is joking about how he’d keep going after I passed out - because we’ve done stuff together for a while and I know I’ll be fine tomorrow.

But I guess to your actual question - I don’t think I am capable of vanilla sex. I have to remind myself regularly that my more vanilla leaning partners will be weirded out if I kiss their feet and thank them for honoring me with their cum after they are done with me, and that avoiding that prioritizes their pleasure.

There’s a guy I’ve been hooking up with for about two years now, who I enjoy having pretty rough sex with. I’ve never seen his face - we both are masked when we meet - and I have no idea what his name is. (Which tbh is the case for most sex I have.)

I mentioned that someone had me piss for them recently, and he asked me if he could piss on me before fucking me. So I set up my towels, he came over, pissed on me, then when we moved over to my fucking pillow, he really gently and carefully cleaned his piss off me. At this point, I don’t really connect sex to intimacy much, but the way he gingerly cleaned my back - before whipping me, putting me into a headlock and pounding me into mindlessness - it was just so gentle.

It was just a weird moment - I go back and forth on whether the rough sex with strangers think is a net negative or positive on my life, whether it’s actually a form of self harm or not. But I also have found that sometimes I get to talk to these men about anarchism or art, and have really fascinating conversations that just wouldn’t happen without doing this.

Just messaging guys on Grindr. They weren’t all in the room at once, it was a revolving door situation.

I’ve had trains run on me before, one right after another, but never a proper gang bang. A few threesomes - having guys take turns or spit roast, but only two dudes at once.

The federated horny world is not nearly as active as Reddit NSFW communities. Going to be mostly straight/bi dudes and fairly conventional stuff.

A pillory does sound very fun - I want to learn some basic wood working to make some stocks.

Institutionalized chattel slavery is really my biggest fantasy. Being microchipped would be “officially” being registered as the property of another person.

I like the idea of being somewhere in between pet/livestock/object, and a microchip works well for that.

I’m less into orgasms, and more seeking a certain kind of headspace. I don’t really orgasm from penetration and I don’t like receiving oral or being played with that much. But there is a sort of psychological pleasure stage that is like a non physical orgasm, which can have different senses to it depending on the partner and the activity.

I think the last time I really got there, a guy pissed on me and then fucked me raw afterwards. Versus having two guys take turns on me hooded and tied. Degradation in the first versus just being an object in the second.

Being branded or microchipped - cold branding is apparently a thing and fairly safe/temporary, so I might try it someday.

I have quite a few fantasies that I wouldn’t survive, but sometimes I’ve thought if I was diagnosed with something terminal, getting fucked in a guillotine would be so fun.

I like shirt and socks. I usually mask and cover up most of my upper body, because I like the objectification of just being an ass up in the air. The shirt and socks are usually some of my art project things, so it also helps create the separation between day me and night me.

Similarly, I like when a guy just drops his pants and slides in. Glory hole vibes.

Choking is extremely dangerous, and it’s important that anyone who wants to do it really really really reads up on how to do it “safely” (you are not eliminating risk.)

It’s just so weird how it’s almost normalized in sex, when it’s far more dangerous than spanking, whipping, flogging, piercing, fire play, cupping, bondage, blood play, cold branding, electro……

It’s sorta like intox in that the most harmful “kinky” sexual practices seem to be mainstream (look at mainstream porn)

The only time I’ve actually cum from vaginal penetration, or really experienced an orgasm from something someone else has done to me was from being flogged to the point of bleeding in a fucking machine at maximum speed while being choked.

It really depends on a bunch of factors. The person giving me the pain has to enjoy it, has to help me get to the appropriate headspace and also has to know how to administer pain in a way that I can trust they know what they are doing. I had a dom for many years that refused to do warmups, and that just sucked all the time.

I’ve been penetrated vaginally with knives and wartenberg wheels. I’ve invited men over to misgender me, choke me with a belt, piss on me, beat me until I bruised and bled… but they start with showing me that they know how to flog properly (watch for backsplash and kidney hits) and work up from there.

But I also hate receiving oral sex, biting, and anal. Those are all “too rough” for me.