Good job with this post

In school maybe but no. I did feel tired basically all day long.

It did seem that the lecturing and teaching put me to sleep quite often.

I do find without enough stimulation I am tired, unfocused, and unable to think sharply.

With too much stimulation I am overwhelmed and become exhausted shortly after an exposure duration-it makes me feel a bit like I’ve got blinders on or I am ultra focused / aroused / stressed for a brief time and then collapse and cant think until I get a moment ( several hours) away from everyone and zone out

Ha well better late than never I suppose.

Have you observed any improvements? You have had some treatment or currently undergoing some?

I think the 2 things I currently identify with the biggest are: Autism- ‘bottom up thinking’ (i think is what its called) Wherein I tend to converse and think from specific ‘this is a woman drinking a coca cola in swimwear on a hot day’ as opposed to ‘this is an advertisement for coca cola, they are using the heat and the attractiveness of the woman to make an appeal’ if shown an advert for coke.

ADHD- Not.being able to perform tasks unless there is an immediate consequence

Both (maybe) Stimulation must be present at the right amount. Too much (a night club) and I start using a lot of energy, im stressed, im less social, I think less clearly, and I fatigue entirely soon after. Often becoming quite irritable and oddly mad at everyone for not being interesting or cool or lacking depth or something illogical.

Hope its working out for you

Good to know that is classified as a disability.

Feels so ironic how they is so much more talk : news, tik tok, documentaries, etc, about missed and late diagnoses of this sort and yet here I am.

Who’d 'a 'thunk I would be in almost the exact situation so many people having been raising awareness about.for so long. Not I. Hehe. Kudos to those people as much as I have felt as though therr are some people who misrepresent conditions or overtrivialize, or something, seems I have been part of the problem maybe.

I know I likely will and or can benefit from medication but I am also unsure and wary.

I was prescribed some SSRI and felt relatively horrific side effects and choose to quit before 72 hours were up…amd SSRIs are supposedly meant to be noticed after months of taking them I believe.

Having nightmares about work. -maybe i dont habe so much nightmares but waking loops of memories of all.slrts of things I did that I wish I hadn’t. Worst was when there was woman (coworker) whom flirted with me in and out of work amd drove my reward systems insane so that it was like I was on drugs amd then having withdrawals–led me to do all sorts of regrettable things. I believe I was like a pet entertainment for her. I dont think her flirts were genuine but rather she enjoyed seeing me aroused/blushed maybe knowing there would never be any true reciprocity

Thanks

Thanks

Yes I feel sometimes "wow Im eating healthy and Im exercising l, I even spoke to a stranger…I am making growth to being better. And then randomly life collapses around me again’

The YouTube is good. Not sure how I’ve gone so long without even considering ADHD/ADD.