So let me get this straight, contemplating suicide, how to do it, when (as in which day of the week), and stuff like that even if you don’t really want it is a poor way to react to emotions ? But it feels so comfy (yeah I should probably see a therapist some day)
I’ve always preferred the fantasies of escape. Like which patch of land I’d rather run away to, how I’d build a shelter that’s functional, safe, and hidden from humans, what kind of plants I’d forage or gather seeds from to grow in a forest garden. Sometimes I think of ways I might find and boil water without matches, or ways to defend the area from bears or defend the garden from deer. In reality, I don’t think I’d be able to keep it up long, but fantasizing about it is really pleasant. Sometimes it’s the only way I manage through hard times.
So let me get this straight, contemplating suicide, how to do it, when (as in which day of the week), and stuff like that even if you don’t really want it is a poor way to react to emotions ? But it feels so comfy (yeah I should probably see a therapist some day)
I’ve always preferred the fantasies of escape. Like which patch of land I’d rather run away to, how I’d build a shelter that’s functional, safe, and hidden from humans, what kind of plants I’d forage or gather seeds from to grow in a forest garden. Sometimes I think of ways I might find and boil water without matches, or ways to defend the area from bears or defend the garden from deer. In reality, I don’t think I’d be able to keep it up long, but fantasizing about it is really pleasant. Sometimes it’s the only way I manage through hard times.
I should try that, it sounds healthier