I envy the people competent enough to actually succeed. my life keeps getting worse and yet there’s no escape for me. tried a few times. Get to witness things getting worse.
Without a doubt, my life would have been much much better if jumped from that window when I was 14.
I don’t struggle with depression that deeply anymore but every once in a great while, I still have moments where I feel this way.
Nearly a century ago, my great-grandpa hung himself. I have no idea why. I do know that the impact was devastating and spanned multiple generations. One of his sons also killed himself about 20 years later.
The one that survived, my grandpa, was never the same. He became “head of the household” at 15. Even though I never met him, every description I’ve ever heard of him was of a man who never got a chance to grow up. That made him a terrible father.
Even if you don’t have kids, there are still people in your life who depend on you and need you, even if they don’t know how to say it. Your absence would leave a giant crater in their lives that would probably never fully heal.
This knowledge has kept me here at moments. I’m glad you’re still here too.
Hey, I just wanted to say that I appreciate you and I’m glad you’re still with us.
FWIW, your family would be traumatised if you did anything like that; quick skim reading tells me you have a daughter. This isn’t meant to guilt trip you regarding your feelings; I just wanted to offer a counter to the “my family would be better too.”
I hope that you end up feeling in control of your own life, and maybe even proud of it. You deserve to walk her down the aisle with happy tears in your eyes (if marriage ends up being on the cards for her!)
chances are I might never see them again, my abusive ex is asking for full custody and she might win. She has been denying custody for weeks, and denying calls, and the courts so far side with her.
I have no rights, my daughter’s will be better if they forgive me anyways.
I’m jealous of those people who have ups and downs in their lives, I genuinely only have downs.
I have imagined this scenario. My wife is not likely to do anything like that but people do go crazy (fundamentally change) in some cases. I think if that scenario (divorce, no access to the child, losing end of the legal system) occurs, I think I’d pick up my shit and try move to a place without extradition agreement with my country. Then start anew.
I envy the people competent enough to actually succeed. my life keeps getting worse and yet there’s no escape for me. tried a few times. Get to witness things getting worse.
Without a doubt, my life would have been much much better if jumped from that window when I was 14.
my family would be better too.
I don’t struggle with depression that deeply anymore but every once in a great while, I still have moments where I feel this way.
Nearly a century ago, my great-grandpa hung himself. I have no idea why. I do know that the impact was devastating and spanned multiple generations. One of his sons also killed himself about 20 years later. The one that survived, my grandpa, was never the same. He became “head of the household” at 15. Even though I never met him, every description I’ve ever heard of him was of a man who never got a chance to grow up. That made him a terrible father.
Even if you don’t have kids, there are still people in your life who depend on you and need you, even if they don’t know how to say it. Your absence would leave a giant crater in their lives that would probably never fully heal.
This knowledge has kept me here at moments. I’m glad you’re still here too.
nope. not in my case. my abuser will likely get custody despite violating the existing custody agreement over and over again.
She’s American and blonde, and the courts see no reason why a large half arab looking foreigner should have custody over 2 blond American girls.
Hey, I just wanted to say that I appreciate you and I’m glad you’re still with us.
FWIW, your family would be traumatised if you did anything like that; quick skim reading tells me you have a daughter. This isn’t meant to guilt trip you regarding your feelings; I just wanted to offer a counter to the “my family would be better too.”
I hope that you end up feeling in control of your own life, and maybe even proud of it. You deserve to walk her down the aisle with happy tears in your eyes (if marriage ends up being on the cards for her!)
chances are I might never see them again, my abusive ex is asking for full custody and she might win. She has been denying custody for weeks, and denying calls, and the courts so far side with her.
I have no rights, my daughter’s will be better if they forgive me anyways.
I’m jealous of those people who have ups and downs in their lives, I genuinely only have downs.
I have imagined this scenario. My wife is not likely to do anything like that but people do go crazy (fundamentally change) in some cases. I think if that scenario (divorce, no access to the child, losing end of the legal system) occurs, I think I’d pick up my shit and try move to a place without extradition agreement with my country. Then start anew.